Being Genuine!! Faking is a NO NO in Christ!

In the midst of seeking new direction and drawing closer to God, He spoke to me about "being genuine". Christianity is not a form of faking ourselves to behave or pretend to be good people and i don't want myself to be in that state!

Being genuine simply is by being yourself! Everyone is God's unique creation, with gifts and talents. So unique and special that no one else in this world can ever replace the things God has for your life.

i was reading the book of 52 teachings of a successfully cell. Part of it wrote, "Let your faith in God, love for Jesus, and passion for the lost be reflected in your life." Thus, being yourself should be a pleasant and joyful thing to do. We shouldn't fake our lives to be a holier "someone". It should not bring burden bcoz we're not trying to be someone else, but simply ourselves!!

Psalm 139:14
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well"

So be genuine. Truly know it in yourself that God created you the way you're to be. No point bluffing others by being who you're not. Stop bluffing yourself by bluffing others. Be the one that God wants you to be and know it full well.

Only by drawing close to God and be totally dependent on Him then you will know who and what you're suppose to be. It's never too late to be genuine, so start being truthful and honest. Be genuine in Christ! =)

i may be struck down but i am NOT DESTROY!

Before i prepare myself for another exciting sunday service, i always asked myself if i can still remember what was been preached without any aid from any notes or reference. This is to really test myself if i really captured what God is trying to speak to me by heart and not memory. Because if you capture it in your heart, you not only will not forget but also apply it too! "Resurrection Power!!" came into my mind.. and yes, that's what i captured in my heart..

There are so many things happening that i can hardly take a break of not thinking and seeking help for God to speak to me in wisdom and direction. Things too overwhelming that i really feel like dying, stop thinking and don't be bothered! But i can't!!! i know i cannot and simply i just cannot!! Because God knows me and i know God. I do not want to be rich bcoz being poor will i have Jesus always in my mind.. I do not want to be wise in knowledge bcoz it may cause me to die my feelings for God.. i do not want to live long life without meaning and purpose in life bcoz i want you Lord..

Things happening in ministry.. boys not coming, one want to leave, some i know they are struggling in sins.. Things in NTU, people may be unsure about why they need to be in the open cell, leaving or even not coming at all.. Things in family, howcome i just cannot get my parents' approval after working so hard!! These are matters that always struck me down, make me helpless..

For ministry, i scare not bcoz my number in cell or cell attendance decreases but i may become selfish and lose the heart for the lost. For NTU, i scare not bcoz why people is not committed but we leaders cannot be clear of sight what God wants us to do. For famly, i scare not bcoz not being accepted nor approved by my parents but when can my whole family come into salvation.. No matter what, i am NOT DESTROYED!! bcoz i have JESUS!! i have the resurrection power through Him! =)

John 10:17-18
"The reason my Father loves me is that i lay down my life-only to take it up again. No one takes it from me, but i lay it down of my own accord. I have the authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command i received from my Father."

Prayer:
Father, i am already dying to my self and my own desire. Really tired and cannot make it already. Only You can make me whole. So please give me strength to move and to keep on giving. i am not superman i know. But unless a kernel of wheat dies, it shall only remain as a seed. i want to be fruitful for You! not bcoz of numbers You send me to lead and change but bcoz You will use me to glorify and testify that You truly are the bread of life! i choose to lay down my life for You so that You may lift me up together with You. God, You're my resurrection power!!

AMEN!!

Open the eyes of my heart Lord.. Enlighten me!!

After a sunday service, i was really thankful for God is really working my life closer to Him. Things where words can't be used to explain. Things that can only be seen with the eyes of your heart. I am so glad that God treasures us so much that each and everyone has his or her unique walk with Him. Totally different, totally special!! =)

Ephensians 1:18
"I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints"

Many times we are just so blind to not see what God is trying to do in our lives, covered by the sense of greed, self-seeking, approval of others and many many. Thus, we miss so many good stuffs that God actually want to work in us, like sense of contentment, humility, security and many many..

Prayer:
Oh Lord.. i really need Your grace!! Come live in me!! Open the eyes of my heart to see what you called me to work upon. Let me be a blessing.. Let me be humble.. Let me see the things that Jesus You see and feel how You would feel.. Let me be compassionate for the lost.. Let me be passionate about You! Oh Father in heaven, i don't want to riches glorious inheritance. i want a deep deep relationship with You.. Hold me close to You.. Enlighten me!! =`)