My Life is Yours, Not Mine..

Was reading a book by Pastor David Ong, wrote about His insight and true feelings during the journey of fighting cancer and staying strong glorifying God.

In the book, he mentioned his life is no longer his.. i began to ponder deep..

Indeed, our lives are not longer ours once we received Christ into our lives.. We're been REDEEMED through the work of His at the cross.. Life has never been the same ever i received Jesus into my life.. i cannot deny i am still facing so many struggles and challenges in life, but i definitely can say the way i approach, the value i have, the thoughts in mind are so different compared to the past..

Even this point of time, struggles have been always toiling in my heart and mind everyday i wake up.. i just can't have the faith to see what good hope God can bring about.. Oh Gorsh.. how to stay positive?

When problems come, many will tell us to look ahead for the good and better will come.. Yes, i know it's like telling us to be positive.. It's like just playing ideas in the mind but the feelings in my heart still feel "yucks". Oh God, i just know i am still missing the "catch" to bring forth the peace and joy You can give into me, Lord..

Thus, i decided to look backwards! Upon every single blessings and wonders He did in my life! i am trying to deal my heart issue with God. When looking back at all these, they are true facts i cannot deny that God is God.. Someone who we can never predict what He will and can do in our lives.. i am remembering His goodness in my life! And by doing and recalling all these, i actually open my heart once again to welcome God into me again.

Pinning my hope onto His words again that nv fail.

John4:14
"But whoever drinks the water I give him will never thrist. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

Prayer:
God i am so sorry for being so nasty in my everyday life with the thoughts that i had entertained during my rough patch of time. i know You're always forgiving and always focus on the person rather than the matter.. Just becoz You're so good, this makes me even more terrible.. i ask of You to cleanse my heart.. Let it be always pure and tender for You.. Change my heart oh Lord, let it be ever new! Let my thrist in life be gone as You build that spring of life in me!