Passion Driven i Must Become..

It had been tough and challenging for the past 2months.. problems with the boys mischievious acts, being a good boy at home helping household chores, organising and attending gatherings.. A lot of self control and discipline needed.. Eventually at times i was tired, not happy and couldn't laugh. But i know it had a good change of heart in me..

Today i blessed my father at home with the 100k blessing.. once again was poked by him with questions and sarcastic remarks regardings Christianity. you asked me how did i feel after blessing him.. i would say it's not good.. i was sad and disappointed, it revealed that my care for them is not enough or should i say not compassionate enough.. it seems like all the work i did in the past was flushed down the drian, not enough for them to see or feel my love for them at all..

For the past, i knew i pushed myself to do things for my family, wanting to get accepted by them for who i am after receiving Christ. Confession!! i was so wrong.. our hearts can be really deceitful at times.. i was "blinded" by thinking i had did enough..

Sitting on Mrt to meet Anthony, i reflected.. The work had not been done in my family.. anything intention without action is nothing.. also, any action without love is nothing too!! I have to always remind myself for it is God's love that changed me to who i am today. I need to move my life in this wonderful love always and meanwhile keeping a Pure HEart, Rightful Conscience and Sincere Faith!

1 Corinthians 13
"1If I speck in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If i give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

Lord, pour over your love in to my life.. let it overflow! i want my heart to be changed, to be more compassionate like Yours.. Work my heart, pump love into me so Love, it shall be the one which motivates me to do every work of Yours.

Jiayou Chong!!

Amazing 20! it shall be a lifestyle of praying..

Wow!! i blessed 20 people in a short 16days!! even myself i could believe it till last night. i realised the number when i was updating my log book faithfully. i was committed to pray daily for my friends..

Actually, i had no intention at all to be reaching the numbers so fast. However, certainly i was committed to want to bless people around me.. so every now and then, i cannot stand myself doing nothing at home and not blessing my friends out there.. So i met one by one or through gatherings. Eventhough i was at home, i blessed my mama either by sweeping and mopping the floor or accompanying her to the NTUC.. I am still totally amazed with the numbers i had today and happy for when i focus on blessing people, God will fill me up with the numbers faithfully. =)

Every night i am committed to pray for everyone inside my log book and also those that i have in mind to meet up to bless. Everytime i looked at the names, i told the Lord to fill my heart with compassion for them as i pray. i don't want it to be like a duty or chore, rather it should be a lifestyle.. to be praying for people daily so that there will be breakthroughs in their lives!! Thus, i took another PACKET of blessings!!! Friends out there, i believe that God will certainly answer prayers.. it may not be all but i trust He had best plans for you..

For this 100k campagne, i see God's hand moving into people's lives unconditionally. God, you certainly loves us so much even as we turned our backs against you.. You're beautiful and gracious..

Lord, let it be a lifestyle that i will pray to watchover those around me.. those i treasure, cherish and dear to me. Let humility be upon me.. for humility is not having lesser of myself but thinking myself lesser.. Lesser of me and more of You God pouring into my life..

Have your way in me.. Blessings everywhere..

While doing the 40days fast, i reflected having good intentions are not enough, Be commited to taking action. Just like what Ed Silvoso said, "Lack of work will lead to the lost of faith."

Recently i was having gatherings. Met up a lot of friends. i was asking myself after a long period of not being together, what could i do to bless them. "100K blessings!!!" came into my mind. But, i was fearful of rejections deep in my heart because i didn't want to lose friendships or make them any deserted from me with the clash of misunderstanding of my intention. i just want to bless them.. i cherish friendships and relationships..

Deep inside my heart, i know that God wanted to bless them even more! therefore, if i don't act upon blessing them, i may cut away chances for God's miracles to be happening in their lives. I had my own miracles with God, i know how good it felt. How can i be so selfish and not let this happiness be happening in them.. Good intention is not good enough, i MUST DO IT!

Being obedient, I did the 100k blessing by faith with Andy, his gf Jennie, Yiyun, Kaixin, Poh Choo, Wenting, Jinghui.. i dunno how do they think about this but God i really pray that You can answer their innermost deep desired needs in their hearts.. may it be health, family harmony, inner peace or even forgiveness, God i know you are a provider.. i believe You have plans for them.. I am commited to pray for you my friends and patiently await for good news be upon you. =)

It was heart warming after every gathering.. With smiles in my heart, i wish all of you my friends out there to be blessed, strengthened, flee from any temptation or misery and may there be joy in your life in everything..

Although it was my birthday celebration, i really felt nothing good for myself everytime. I will only feel good when friends, you are blessed with a laugh or smile on your face. You all are special to me no matter where you are.. i am actually blessed to have you all in my life.. Thank you! =)

Do we deserve it?

Yesterday was a partnership with one of my spiritual bro, Jasper. We met at tampines mall with one thing in mind, to do the 100k blessings. We went to NtUC 1st to buy mineral water to bless the people who we would met. Then we prayed to the Lord, asking favour from Him that He would used us to bless those He wanted.

In my heart, frankly, i was excited!! suddenly it felt like this was a real life RPG game conquering quest for the Lord. haha. Well, I asked God to lead me specifically who could i bless. This was because i didn't want to be blessing people who i wanted, instead of God's will. He said "smokers!" So i went ahead without much hesitation. Indeed, I blessed two.

The 1st smoker who i approached was directly behind me, so i went. As we chit chat and addressed him who we were and what was our purpose, we found out that he actually has a gf who is also a Christian belonging to a church in Hougang. Ironically, his purpose there was to "kua zhui" (watch out for police) as his partner was selling VCDs down the road. haha. I continued to pray for him as his eyes still fixed onto the road. Lastly, we thanked him and while walking away, i told him that God will still bless him. wahaha. He laughed. =)

"Woohoo! God, i did it!!" this i said delightly inside my heart. it felt good. Thank God..

Shortly walking awhile, i approached the 2nd smoker. He smiled at me and was friendly. Same thing, i shared who was i and my intention. i started asking him if did he ever want to quit smoking. With a question mark face, he replied "never". It seemed like no one ever asked him to quit before. Thus, I continued to ask, "Do you have a gf, does she mind your smoking habit?" and "Do you know that smoking is bad for health?". He smiled and said yes to both. After that i was inspired to share how i myself quited the habit with God amazingly used a sergernt to catch me smoking during army. In fact, in army, everyone knows that smokers are allowed to smoke. He was amazed. This broke the ice! I told him God does care for us.

We continued with the list of blessings. i promised him that i will certainly prayed over his health everyday even before he expressed what he wanted. He was amazed by my act of commitment. He commented he really felt my sincerity and appreciated me. but as i requested to pray for him, he said this "i don't think i deserved this". oh!!! Instantly i felt God's compassion pouring into me, it was so sad. I told him that i wanted to bless you because God 1st blessed me and HE wants to bless everyone. Eventually he agreed to receive the blessing prayer. After praying, i also assured him that i believe God can do miracles and he will help him in kicking the smoking habit if he's willing. He smiled. Just before we parted, i pleased him to call me if he successfully quit the habit within one month. He agreed. haha..

I did a reflection.. God really wants to bless us. Yes, everyone!!! the 1st smoker who was a working in a business in selling pirated vcds and the 2nd smoker who was so shocked that someone not related does cared to pray for him everyday. God loves and HE cares! that's y he sent Jesus down to die for us. Do we deserve it? frankly, i don't think so but through His amazing grace we were all saved by putting our faith in believing Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour.

God, open my eyes to see you and my ears to hear you! continue to work my heart.. Let me be more compassionate for the lost..

Lord, I want......!!!

Hallelujah!! i am back from a 2day2 night wonderful encounter camp.. In this camp, i went back to the most fundamental things we need to know in order to understand God's will for our lives..

1.God, you are our perfect father
2.Jesus, our saviour
3.The work of the Cross
4.Our counsellor, Holy Spirit

However, in this post, i wanted to share one ultimate attitude which i captured during the camp that will bring us to the success. That is the "I want..!!" attitude.

Most of the time in the session led by Ps Danny, we were always shouting "I want...!!" At first, all of us were either hesitant or too shy when asked to do so.. but after a few times, we really opened our hearts and shouted. This was to awake the desire inside us that we want God. every shouting we held for 20-30sec and they were loud..

Upon reflecting, i realised that many things in my life usually complied this attitude.. Without this attitude, there won't be any desire to do any thing properly. May end up being lost and losing focus. For example, i was quite an impressive soccer player during my younger days.. that was because I WAnTED to be the best. i pushed myself to practice diligently day in day out, focusing on dribbling, ball control, shooting and even accuracy and result showed! i was the only chinese who made it into the 1st team representing up to national level competing with every other top schools in Singapore. hehe..

Today, God i want You! i desire You.. have Your way in me.. continue to work in my heart as i focus on listening to Your Voice everyday.. =)

My Quiet Time

I am grateful of where i am at this point of time in my life.. certainly many of my friends noticed a significant difference in me compared to the past.. I must confess that i always want to seek for a life that is problem free, relax and can just laid back and do nothing.. in fact, this is a desire where all human beings wanted. However in reality, this is impossible..

Everyday doing my quiet time with the Lord, reading His words, reflecting upon my life.. i come to understand myself more and more.. This become a walking journey with the Lord understanding more of Him and knowing more of myself.. i discovered many root issues that always channelled to many similar problems in my life.. so by refreshing my heart and mind daily with the Lord, keeps me Awake! in a sense that i will safe guard myself from all sort of bad behaviour and attitude which may lead to sins.. in life, we have a choice.. we always do!

John 8:31-32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

In a season of Looking Far, i target myself to be someone who can really shout out loud.. "Lord, indeed i am a son of Yours!"

I surrender all to you, Lord.. i will learn to be more obedient and hold onto your teaching closely in my heart to live purposefully for You everyday in my life...

Guarding my Heart, my Life

I supposed hardening our hearts is a time of rejecting God's best offer for ourselves.

Come to think about it, i have somethings with me which i am still struggling with.. A lot of time i harden my heart for self pleasure.. This cut away all the goodness and perfect plan God had planned for me..

Hardening of the heart can be like the things we think negatively, things we do selfishly, words we say out of ego.. people does like to dwell in the sweet old memories whether is it relationship or glory, we have this self seeking attitude to feel good about ourselves.. Because we want the best in everything for ourselves..

Today i reflected, i know that the best cannot be found anywhere except in the Lord. Also, we must learn to put away all selfishness so that God can work more in us..

Heavenly Father,

Take away my "self", Put more of You in me..

I pray..

Amen..