Little Dreams for God in this Reality World

Spiritual Rebirth

2010-10-05T21:07:00.001+08:00

A New beginning of Year 2010!!

2010-01-28T19:08:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

It's been so long since i last blog.. Stepping into another year, You nv failed to encourage me to live a life of faith.. This is a year of PROJECT "X".. i want to X-perience YOU!!

Just picked up a book by a power Christian.. His name is Glenn Lim, writing his own testimony of how God pulled him thru challenge and finally transformed him to be a man of influence. I believe by reading this, it will encourage me along side to want to have You work more in my life..

Many things in my heart yet to really talk to You but God, You're always this so faithful thanks..

John 14:1-3
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."

Prayer:
I am not going to worry Lord.. So many times i told myself not to because i know that God You're my saviour.. I will press on.. Amen FOREVER!! =)

Do not remain in Silence. Let me Pray.

2009-09-01T09:24:00.003+08:00

Psalm109:1
"O God, whom I praise, do not remain silent"

Psalm109:27
"Let them know that it is your hand that you. O Lord, have done it."

(It is a draft post many many months on 18th April 2008, back while reading the book of Psalms)

Prayer:
God, please don't be silent to me. i know i am not perfect and can fall short in so many ways. A lie, my pride, jealousy, lustful eyes. Gorsh! How then can i guard my life pure and holy? Only You, through You and by You. Lord, let me pray. Let me have the willing spirit always availing myself even during the toughest time. i want to be mold by You. So may Your hands come and shape me. i want to be more like You.

Let me pray! I want to be a walking testimony and witness of Your miracle in my life!! Urgh!!

I want to GROW!! Faith is the key!!

2009-05-16T23:55:00.002+08:00

Oh Lord.. i really want to grow for You.. i want to bear fruits in numbers and raise up a group of people who truly want see G12 as a vision for the multitudes..

Father, cases i have dealt with.. people i see with my own eyes fallen away.. i somehow lost my faith or even feel inadequate being able to do You proud.. i am falling away too?

In this new season, we broke up into 2 groups wanting and hoping to multiply! God.. can you please show me signs and wonders!! i am really praying for You to move Your mighty hands.. i know it so true that unless You move, i can never move even the smallest stone..

But Jesus, Your word says in Matt 17:20
"I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you"

in 1John 4:4
"..the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world."

So i tell You wat God.. i am going to build my faith and trust onto You again! even as my faith is that small, Jesus you said nothing will be impossible. i want my whole soul, mind and heart to know that! i shall not look into my circumstances! i trust in You! because the one in me is greater than the one in this world!

God, You're in control! I am in command! Let me and everyone of your precious take hold of the authority You had given to us!

i must move in Faith!!

2009-05-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

Moving in Faith is a statement that shows God is real and He's good.

Hebrews 11:6
"Without faith is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."

My prayer:

Lord, let my faith acknowledges Your presence and Your goodness..

Jesus, help me to move in faith daily.. i want to please You..

There are so many times i thought and i felt i know You well enough.. but the fact is not.. Lord, help me to know You're real as i move in faith.. i want to be connected to You!

God, i want to be a son of Yours!!

2009-05-02T23:08:00.004+08:00

God, it's really a big challenge for me to blog with the busy schedules. You know my struggles.. However, i really battle a thought in my mind. i cannot or i don't want.. it makes a big difference..

I always know that You're a God who don't look at how capable a person is, but how willing the person is. You focus on our hearts..

Rom8:19
" The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed."

Even the creation waits in eager expectation, how much is to say for You my God who waits for the hearts of men to yearn for You..

May Your will be done in me.. ;)

My Life is Yours, Not Mine..

2009-03-12T15:50:00.004+08:00

Was reading a book by Pastor David Ong, wrote about His insight and true feelings during the journey of fighting cancer and staying strong glorifying God.

In the book, he mentioned his life is no longer his.. i began to ponder deep..

Indeed, our lives are not longer ours once we received Christ into our lives.. We're been REDEEMED through the work of His at the cross.. Life has never been the same ever i received Jesus into my life.. i cannot deny i am still facing so many struggles and challenges in life, but i definitely can say the way i approach, the value i have, the thoughts in mind are so different compared to the past..

Even this point of time, struggles have been always toiling in my heart and mind everyday i wake up.. i just can't have the faith to see what good hope God can bring about.. Oh Gorsh.. how to stay positive?

When problems come, many will tell us to look ahead for the good and better will come.. Yes, i know it's like telling us to be positive.. It's like just playing ideas in the mind but the feelings in my heart still feel "yucks". Oh God, i just know i am still missing the "catch" to bring forth the peace and joy You can give into me, Lord..

Thus, i decided to look backwards! Upon every single blessings and wonders He did in my life! i am trying to deal my heart issue with God. When looking back at all these, they are true facts i cannot deny that God is God.. Someone who we can never predict what He will and can do in our lives.. i am remembering His goodness in my life! And by doing and recalling all these, i actually open my heart once again to welcome God into me again.

Pinning my hope onto His words again that nv fail.

John4:14
"But whoever drinks the water I give him will never thrist. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

Prayer:
God i am so sorry for being so nasty in my everyday life with the thoughts that i had entertained during my rough patch of time. i know You're always forgiving and always focus on the person rather than the matter.. Just becoz You're so good, this makes me even more terrible.. i ask of You to cleanse my heart.. Let it be always pure and tender for You.. Change my heart oh Lord, let it be ever new! Let my thrist in life be gone as You build that spring of life in me!

I see GRACE!!

2009-03-03T01:00:00.003+08:00

i woke up this morning today, many thoughts came into my mind which can easily made me feel i am going to have a lousy or troublesome day. Things like my fyp, quiz, family, ministry, friends' problems.. However i CHOSE to see it differently!

Thousands and hundreds reasons we can think of that tell us we cannot make it. With one reason i can think of that helps me break free is my God, JESUS!!

When i began to focus onto Jesus, i see GRACE!! The greatest gift for He who died to set me free. Free from bondages, self-condemnation. Give me strength and courage to face storms in life.. With thankfulness, i allowed my spirit man to rise up and be BIG for God!!

John 14:1-3
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going"

Prayer:
Thank You Lord for reminding me the most wonderful gift, Grace.. My life changed so much that i know with my whole heart, it couldn't be my own effort.. It's Your amazing grace that brings me this far! God, i plead that i can always be taught to be humble to know You are the one who leads me, guides me, changes me for the success to come into my life.. Allow me to offer my life to be used by You, to glorify YOUR NAME!! i want to be a true follower, a living walking testimony of Your goodness.. Jesus... i thank You for You love me so SO much! MuacK!! =P

Reign in me Lord! YEAH! =D

Don't Waste Time Away.. Heart of Wisdom..

2009-02-12T00:36:00.006+08:00

Currently reading a book that Ej bro gave me as a Christmas present named "Talking the Walk", talking about a pastor's walk with God through cancer.

Came over this verse he mentioned in his book..

Psalm 90:12
"Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom"

It really made me reflect whether am i making full use of my time doing God's work anot.. Am i treasuring my moments while i am still alive.. Actually i have my "limited" time for me to live with, i don't know what will happen next or when God will just take me away. But i definitely believe i have to live differently from now! i must treasure my moments more and be more focus to do more meaningfully things.

Oh Jesus, so many times i easily got caught up with the problems and personal desire that blinded my focus of God's purpose in me.. You're so steadfast and focus onto God's work, nv were You caught slacking or being lazy. This is because You always remember God's purpose for You. Therefore You treasured every moment You had to do God's work. Teach me! Give me the heart of wisdom to be quick to respond and do what is necessary. i want to be more like You! i don't want to regret living my life not to the fullest for Your purpose in me.

Guide me Lord.. PLEASE.. =D

I want to be more like YOU!! =D

2009-01-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

Last thurday, i was late meeting up ej bcoz a foreigner was lost and needed direction at my LRT station.. No hesitation, i helped him, especially this year God is teaching us to love ya NEIGHbour(everyone) as ourselves..

Today was even more amazing!! i met the same "foreigner" in MRT!! haha.. initally i wasn't aware of him until he came over and asked me how to go to the AIRport from sengkang MRT.. i was completely shocked but with a calm face, i offered that he can sit with me to outram while i also need to be there to change train for school. this time round, i talked to him and got to know him that he's leaving singapore for his country. he smiled at me, i smiled at him. we communicated freely even there's some barrer.. actually, kinda missed him when we parted.. lol.. =D

i believe God, You're trying to tell me something.. teach me something..

Helping a same person twice is more than special. i believe God, You're reminding me to be constantly do good to people as i did set some faith goals about helping my brothers to rise up and reaching out to my friends by blessing them..

Gal6:10
"Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers"

Continue to do good bcoz..

Gal6:9
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."

Lord, i want to reap a harvest for YOU, not for myself!! allow me to draw closer to You and be used by YOU!!

Jiayou Alvin Ong Khiaw Chong! Jesus Yi Ji BANG!! =D

Glory be to God!!

2009-01-16T01:46:00.005+08:00

today had a meet up with ej.. wah!! a long time since we two can really sit down and catch up.. i am glad to know this great guy of God.. he inspired me lots and encouraged me lots..

3 years back.. i told myself this "EEeee yer!! who is this!! y CHUP so much into my life" but found myself growing so much under his guidance and mentorship..

i looked back and find all these so impossible.. it's You oh Lord!! thanks for giving me strength to decide to open my life and be TRANSPARENT TOTALLY..

i can still rember the words i told him that even as our relationship is not close, i want to be SUCK his power for God.. lol.. and our journey of friendship/mentorship/discipleship started from there.. Thanks for putting him ahead of my journey, Lord..

Bcoz of my past and also i am serious about growing and building my foundation, i gave up alot of things! being serious in growing, i told myself i cannot live a double life.. in church one pattern, outside pattern more than badmington.. understanding i got old friends and circumstances that will jio jio me back to my old self. Thanks God for sending ej into my life to guard me and help me..

Lord, You always want to build us, Your people.. but can we put away all those foolish acts of living a double life? i want breakthroughs in my life Lord.. i need miracles!! teach me not to play God but let You rule over me.. there're so much more for me to catch up my life for You! Live in me Lord.. allow me to glorify You with my life..

1Cor 13:11
"When i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. When i became a man, i put childish ways behind me."

Glory be to YOU Lord!!

Being Genuine!! Faking is a NO NO in Christ!

2008-08-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

In the midst of seeking new direction and drawing closer to God, He spoke to me about "being genuine". Christianity is not a form of faking ourselves to behave or pretend to be good people and i don't want myself to be in that state!

Being genuine simply is by being yourself! Everyone is God's unique creation, with gifts and talents. So unique and special that no one else in this world can ever replace the things God has for your life.

i was reading the book of 52 teachings of a successfully cell. Part of it wrote, "Let your faith in God, love for Jesus, and passion for the lost be reflected in your life." Thus, being yourself should be a pleasant and joyful thing to do. We shouldn't fake our lives to be a holier "someone". It should not bring burden bcoz we're not trying to be someone else, but simply ourselves!!

Psalm 139:14
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well"

So be genuine. Truly know it in yourself that God created you the way you're to be. No point bluffing others by being who you're not. Stop bluffing yourself by bluffing others. Be the one that God wants you to be and know it full well.

Only by drawing close to God and be totally dependent on Him then you will know who and what you're suppose to be. It's never too late to be genuine, so start being truthful and honest. Be genuine in Christ! =)

i may be struck down but i am NOT DESTROY!

2008-08-10T00:23:00.005+08:00

Before i prepare myself for another exciting sunday service, i always asked myself if i can still remember what was been preached without any aid from any notes or reference. This is to really test myself if i really captured what God is trying to speak to me by heart and not memory. Because if you capture it in your heart, you not only will not forget but also apply it too! "Resurrection Power!!" came into my mind.. and yes, that's what i captured in my heart..

There are so many things happening that i can hardly take a break of not thinking and seeking help for God to speak to me in wisdom and direction. Things too overwhelming that i really feel like dying, stop thinking and don't be bothered! But i can't!!! i know i cannot and simply i just cannot!! Because God knows me and i know God. I do not want to be rich bcoz being poor will i have Jesus always in my mind.. I do not want to be wise in knowledge bcoz it may cause me to die my feelings for God.. i do not want to live long life without meaning and purpose in life bcoz i want you Lord..

Things happening in ministry.. boys not coming, one want to leave, some i know they are struggling in sins.. Things in NTU, people may be unsure about why they need to be in the open cell, leaving or even not coming at all.. Things in family, howcome i just cannot get my parents' approval after working so hard!! These are matters that always struck me down, make me helpless..

For ministry, i scare not bcoz my number in cell or cell attendance decreases but i may become selfish and lose the heart for the lost. For NTU, i scare not bcoz why people is not committed but we leaders cannot be clear of sight what God wants us to do. For famly, i scare not bcoz not being accepted nor approved by my parents but when can my whole family come into salvation.. No matter what, i am NOT DESTROYED!! bcoz i have JESUS!! i have the resurrection power through Him! =)

John 10:17-18
"The reason my Father loves me is that i lay down my life-only to take it up again. No one takes it from me, but i lay it down of my own accord. I have the authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command i received from my Father."

Prayer:
Father, i am already dying to my self and my own desire. Really tired and cannot make it already. Only You can make me whole. So please give me strength to move and to keep on giving. i am not superman i know. But unless a kernel of wheat dies, it shall only remain as a seed. i want to be fruitful for You! not bcoz of numbers You send me to lead and change but bcoz You will use me to glorify and testify that You truly are the bread of life! i choose to lay down my life for You so that You may lift me up together with You. God, You're my resurrection power!!

AMEN!!

Open the eyes of my heart Lord.. Enlighten me!!

2008-08-09T00:14:00.003+08:00

After a sunday service, i was really thankful for God is really working my life closer to Him. Things where words can't be used to explain. Things that can only be seen with the eyes of your heart. I am so glad that God treasures us so much that each and everyone has his or her unique walk with Him. Totally different, totally special!! =)

Ephensians 1:18
"I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints"

Many times we are just so blind to not see what God is trying to do in our lives, covered by the sense of greed, self-seeking, approval of others and many many. Thus, we miss so many good stuffs that God actually want to work in us, like sense of contentment, humility, security and many many..

Prayer:
Oh Lord.. i really need Your grace!! Come live in me!! Open the eyes of my heart to see what you called me to work upon. Let me be a blessing.. Let me be humble.. Let me see the things that Jesus You see and feel how You would feel.. Let me be compassionate for the lost.. Let me be passionate about You! Oh Father in heaven, i don't want to riches glorious inheritance. i want a deep deep relationship with You.. Hold me close to You.. Enlighten me!! =`)

The Attitude i will always bear in Mind!!

2008-07-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Thank Lord for Your words..Also, i got to thank my good G12 bro Ej for sharing this words during cell group. He's a great man of great faith. Who am i today, certainly much credit has to go to him. A man of actions for God. He's one of my inspirations and one of the top role models i always follow closely with.

1Thessalonians5:16-18
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

One of the attitude that i surely know God wants in me and all His people is be Joyful!!

Does it mean that when we received Christ, there will be zero problem in our lives? Answer is No!

The fact is there will always be problems in our lives whether you like it anot. However, after having God in my life, i learned to see how my problems can be a blessing from God and be joyful always. My conviction is God always wants us to be happy and blessed, Devil always wants us to be stressed, emo, depressed and feel negative about ourselves.

God knows our struggle whenever we meet problems. Yes, He really knows and He wants to set us free. Only by choosing to follow His ways of living then we can attain the fullness in life!

Take a closer look at the verse above! God told us to be joyful always!!! Can you believe it? Not sometimes but ALWAYS!!! "Is it possible?" i was thinking when i 1st read this. My conclusion is that i choose to believe it's possible! Because God loves His people and if you love someone, you will always want that someone to be always happy.

After i began to believe, i don't just stop there. I follow His way of living by praying continually! Praying is like talking. A communication. Whether good things or bad things, i be totally truthful in wat i say to Him and the people around as i share and account. When i think or feel nasty things, i make sure i confess it and not let Devil have any foothold to it! When i am happy and good things are happening, i make sure i praise Him all the way!

The greatest challenge in a personal walk with God, which i think, is choosing to praise Him in all circumstances! Not during the good times, but also the bad times! That's why in verse 18 He said "in all circumstance." But many people will say "how can!!?" Let's me remind you that we are believing in a Supernatural God. It is when we choose to praise Him even in bad bad situations, then the supernatural things happen in our lives! God did mentioned we need strength to love Him, it not going to be easy to praise Him in bad times. But if you want to see the supernatural, you need to be supernatural and do what you have never done before!

Christianity is never a religion. It's a personal relationship with God. A supernatural walk with God. It's so unique that no one can teach unless you walk your own journey with God yourself.

Prayer:
Lord, i am glad that i met You. i thank You for nv give up hope on me. i will complain at times and even grumble but God, let me praise You in all circumstances and let the joy in me be made complete by You! Thank You so much! Love You Holy Spirit for speaking into me.. Must be You, my life will then be secured. =)

I am a conqueror and i choose not to be complacent!

2008-07-07T14:22:00.004+08:00

John 8:29
"The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for i always do what pleases him."

If there's an exam upon 100 marks, by your own standard, you know that you can get 80marks out of it and have an A1 the 1st grade. You can be happy and just be at that state. But God doesn't want us to be complacent!! He wants us to have to work for that 100 marks! Go be the best that we can be in our lives.

Reflection:
Many times in life, i know i cannot make it by my own standard. i can feel stupid and meaningless serving in ministry, school and family while i am struggling with other things still. i can simply sit down and do nothing for anything. Everyday go out and just have my own fun, thinking i am full of life still. Be selfish and unappreciative to the people around me who helped me.

But God, i don't want my life to be like that. i know that isn't your plan for me and that's not my life that i really want to be! The best plans come from You! i want to best out of all things even if i need to work for it!

Jesus, let me really receive You into my heart that You're my saviour and role model in everything. When i tired and even want to give up, Lord please let me have that confidence in You that i know You will protect me and affirm me what i do for You is right. Please don't let me feel that i am alone. Let me live as a prince for i am a prince. i don't belong to a beggar's life for i am already redeemed by You.

i am a conqueror! For You never leave me alone.

VICTORY is already WON! We just need to RECOGNISE our IDENTITY!

2008-07-01T02:14:00.004+08:00

During last week's cell, Ej never failed to punch in some true simple facts. This is my take back. It goes something like this:

"We receive Christ by faith! And once we received Christ, victory is already won! But there are many situations that often make us wallow in defeat, make us feel like losers and eat worms. So how do we link up or see ourselves that victory is already won once we receive Christ? We need to recognise our identity that we're the sons of God! If God is King, we're the princes!"

i was quite taken up with this point due to spiritual battlefield i fought for the past few days over the area of lust, ministry and self expectations. For the next few days, i kept on telling myself that i must really receive this sonship from God into my life. i must know that i really don't have to do anything which may put me into a slavery mode. For Jesus truly loves me, God's grace is sufficient for me and victory has been won!

Just after 2 days, God hit me once again to affirm me through Ps Melvyn's sermon on Sunday service. He said in his 3rd point sermon that when we stepped into light, it reflects our positions from slave to son. This is my take back:

"There are people who often goes in and out the defeat zone and victory zone. They can switch between slaves in sin and sons with God in quick moments. They often keep struggling and falling back into sins. This is because they are in confusion and do not recognise their identity in Christ."

My reflection:
i really thank God for always being kind and gracious to speak to me clearly everytime when i needed Him. For He really loves me as His son. Through any trials in life, i must really stand firm and know in my heart that the victory is already won because i am a son of God. If my God is for me, then who shall be against me! i walk by faith!

If any point i am discouraged, Jesus please take away any unwilling spirit in me that hinders me to do things that please You. Input the pure joy in me for You.

John 8:29
"The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases Him."

Thank You Lord! I am a son of Yours! =)

You are the Builder! Not me.. =`(

2008-05-10T01:28:00.004+08:00

Psalm 127:1
"Unless the Lord builds the house, it's builder labor in vain"

Father, it must be a broken spirit that leads to the gateway of Yours..! indeed, if Your presence is not with me, how far can i go or last..

Thank you Holy Spirit with the constant reminder to watch over my tongue and mouth.. through it, i praise God, through it, i can also be cursing.. Today, was having a gathering with my uni clique celebrating Sj's birthday. However as we settled and start crapping and joking, i had lost my tongue.. i went into criticising people and joking unmanneredly to the gals.. Haiz.. how unholy!! God, how can my heart and attitude sway away from Your values in me so easily.. But thank God for this bcoz i understand once again that how man can move away being God-focus easily.

Yes! unless You Lord enthrone in me, my work will always be in vain.. it's not behaviour modification but heart transformation You want in Your people! Let Your grace always be telling me that i am weak.. i am nobody.. i am unworthy.. Yet bcoz You're crazy over me, Jesus was to die on the cross for me..

Psalm 118:5
"In anguish I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free"

Let Your redemption begin in me.. Let me come to the cross daily for Your cleansing of my heart. Help Help Help Lord.. i need You badly.. God, please speak to me.. sustain me.. =`(

A simple Test!

2008-05-06T09:14:00.004+08:00

Same as my usual routine to work, bus and mrt transport. However today, is a test of heart.

At the very beginning of the day in bus, God had already put this verse into my mind..

Matthew 6:19-20
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, where thieves do not break in and steal."

i was telling myself, "Yes Lord! Yes Jesus.." i thought i knew it but soon the test came! While waiting for the mrt to come, i was pleading God to give me seat in the train so that i can rest my back or take a nap till my destination (Jurong East). Amazingly, when i board the train, there was really one seat available! i thank God and quickly rushed over and sat down. During this process, at the corner of my eye, i saw another malay lady who also want that seat. Unfortunately, i was fast! hehe.. Immediately, Holy Spirit came down on me, reminding the verse in me not to store up treasures on earth and be like Jesus, always serving and giving.. GIVE UP the seat!!

At the back of my mind, i began to analyse whether should i give up the seat not. i looked at the surrounding for any elderly, none! i looked at the lady, she looks pretty healthy, fit and got "good strong" legs to substain the ride.. Thus, i decided not to give up my seat for there isn't any SUFFICIENT good reasons for me to do so..

The worse thing came! i took out my bible and read! Wah!! this time i realised how can a God seeker not do wat God has commanded me to do. Super remorseful! But by then, i was already very awkward to give up my seat after some time. Eventually i decided to not give up my seat again and carry on sitting.

At the second stop, this other older chinese woman came in with plastic bags, standing beside this malay lady.. Oh the opportunity came, a SUFFICIENT reason for me to give up my seat i thought. But! suddenly, i began to think that if i gave up this seat for the chinese woman, will the malay lady think i am racist? i was stuck once again and decided not to give up the seat.. By this time, Holy Spirit was like so buay tahan with me already, telling me "Just Give Up the seat la, whether who sits down on it will be decided by me"

So the third stop was approaching, the guy beside me stood up and left for door! the malay lady sat down.. By this time, i also really buay tahan myself. How can i still be sitting on that seat! Finally i decided to obey God. i looked at the chinese woman, stood up, smile and told her she may have the seat.. She smiled back at me saying "i don't think so, bcoz i think i may have board the wrong train. i want to go ANG MO KIO." so i was surprised and quickly told her that she had boarded the wrong train. She thanked me and began to move to the door..

Suddenly i noticed the seat that i gave up is empty! i looked around, i was the only one standing.. THEN i realised indeed God long ago had prepared a seat for me to take good care of me. Just that He put a simple test to see whether will i obey Him and trust Him that He can still provide even if i am put to a situation to give up things for Him to do good. Eventually i thanked God for His patience, grace, teachings and then sat on the same seat again.. =)

Prayer:

Psalm 125:1
"Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever"

Father, let me follow the pattern of Jesus! i am sorry for i had been so calculative in looking for hundreds and thousands SUfficient Good reasons to do your work.. In fact, You are that one Good reason of why i should do good. i know i had failed in Your standards.. Give me grace so that i can continue to serve You and do Your will in me.. i want to trust You forever and i know that You will not let me be shaken by circumstances the evil one throws at me but will allow me to endure and perservere it!

Thank You for the test! For this, i know how much i need You in my life.. i love You, Jesus! my saviour, my role model! =)

Such Wonderful Creator!

2008-04-14T20:18:00.008+08:00

Psalm 104:24
"How many are your works, O Lord! In wisdom you made them all; the earth is full of your creatures."

Psalm 84:1-3
"1.How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord Almighty! 2.My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; 3.my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God"

Lord, if anyone were to close their eyes and think carefully of all the creations in this world, he or she will be able to know your existance. i can still remember the very first time in primary school, how amused i was when introduced to "Food chain". It's so amazing to see how animals actually depends on one anothers existance. If anyone were to take away any in the middle, there will be an inbalance.

Father, many times men are forgetful or should i say will easily forget the goodness of Yours. Your blessing is the unremovable testimony to know that it's not by chance or luck that things happened. i am so grateful that God, You will allow me to come back into Your courts to worship. For You are my creator! Mark Your works in me! Let me be a walking testimony for You're such a wonderful creator.. =)

Thank you Lord for making me.. Amen! Love you! =)

You Are Worthy To Trust!

2008-04-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

Psalm 100:5
For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.

Isn't it great to hear such a powerful statement? it really just blow of my mind when i got to read this Psalm. i really don't get to hear any other gods that will promise to bless generations after generations unconditionally. God indeed is a wonderful and faithful God.. Your love will endure forever! it has always been dwelling within my heart to know i have such a great God that i can surrender even my generations that are to come.. hehe

My Prayer:
Oh Father in heaven, please don't let my heart grow cold towards You, for You pour favours after favours over my life. Groom me to be someone that can testify Your goodness and share Your loving kindness to people around me.. keep me strong Lord.. keep me close to You.. Amen!

I am a NEW CREATION!!

2008-04-03T15:18:00.003+08:00

Father in heaven, i am taking time out of the busy midst of my life to come and talk to You.. You know all my deeds.. Father, forgive me for choosing my own ways insteads of Yours.. i truely repent.. At times i just don't wish to listen, don't want to care about You and i really don't understand why things turned out to be the opposite of what You wanted to be in me.. Please teach me.. Please allow me to have that discipline and hunger to want to know more of You and attain that wisdom to conquer all situations in life through the knowledge of Christ.

2Cor5:17:
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation

Lord, my saviour, my righteous God.. come and create a new heart in me, make me new again!! Teach me to see things in the Christ point of view and not the worldly. Allow me to come to You with my heart abandoned at all times! let me decrease and You increase in me in every single day!

Keep me strong God, with Your ultimate Grace on me.. Allow me to reborn in Christ! Let me be a conqueror over Lust, Greed, Pride!

God, Help Me Know You're Always There For Me..

2008-03-30T22:50:00.005+08:00

Revelation 3:15-16 and 19-20
"15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish that you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot or cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
"19Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. 20Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, i will come in and eat with them, and they with me."

Lord, i have to admit that i am never perfect. At this time being, i recognise that i cannot reach God's standard.. it's too far high.. There are certainly moments when i am lazy, i am disobedient to respond to your call, i am not putting my best effort but doing bare minimum and i know what is right but i do what is wrong.. Lord, indeed You know my deeds and what is to come.. am i being lukewarm? For this i really don't know and dare not answer..

So, please search deep inside my heart and see things that are pleasing to Your eyes.. I know i am not perfect and not worthy but please let me be working towards Your standards.. Show grace and mercy upon me.. Rebuke me and disciple me Lord.. Let me fear You so to make me be earnest and really repent for all wrong-doings and set a conviction in my heart to move for You Lord.

Father, allow me to see and hear the wonderful work of Your laws. Give me strength to pull through all difficult circumstances and temptations. Jesus, let the work on the cross be always a constant reminder in me so i can turn to You in times of need and know i was bought at a painful price.. Lord, help me know You're always there for me, never to forsake me.. Give me spiritual ears to hear and do what is desirable for You.. Come Lord.. Fall afresh on me! I really need You.. Please come!

Prayer Life Brings Spiritual Life

2008-03-13T23:30:00.004+08:00

Yest went for the church wide prayer meet, got a catch from SP. He said our spiritual life will nv exceed our prayer life. i heard it and receive it with some uncertainty to it. deep in the spirit i felt something different, like God is speaking to me that prayer is the most important thing in a Christian faith.. so i seeked and asked God..

What is prayer?
in simple terms, it is having conversation with another person but this time round, the person is a special character.. He is God the creator and redeemer! this is so important bcoz if you are not able to talk and hear from God properly, how can you grow spiritually?? from the bible, i realised that all the while despite the challenges in life even Jesus, Paul and many great bible character like King David nv fail to talk to God in prayers.. that's y our spiritual life can never grow if we don't learn to pray..

What is Christianity?
In this season of a Psalm a Day, i learn to talk to God more closely and the desire of my heart to listen to His call is even greater. Christianity indeed is not a religion but a relationship with God. with a great intimacy or close relation with God must be be caught to be in a religious act that you must shout louder in prayer and have big big pattern actions.. God doesn't want a flawless performance, He wants our heart. so all it takes is a heart willing to quieten down and put away all the things we're concern about, then just talk to God and listen to what He wants in your life to be done.. no plan is greater than His for you..

In conclusion, our spiritual life comes from our relation with God and, to have a relation with God, we need to learn to talk to Him and ask Him in prayers.. How can our spiritual walk be any spiritual if we are not connecting spiritually correct with God.. haha!!! i also blur.. so pray la! God surely understands you bcoz He is God. that's why i need You God.. Listen to my Prayers.. Love You... Amen..

Jesus the Bread of Life!

2008-03-11T23:58:00.004+08:00

i love You Lord! i Love You Jesus! oh i know that i just have to blog at this moment to declare the goodness of You! Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me to this passage:

John6:35
Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty....."

Yes Jesus! as i discipline myself to come to You daily, remembering Your work at the cross, let me know how much i am treasuredby You and how much more i should not go in my own ways but to take delight in You with everything i do..

Jesus! i thank You for setting the pace so that many can follow.. becoz You had obeyed and thus many will do so.. let me be more like You day by day.. Let You be the motivation when i am weak.. Help me to greater heights and deeper understand of Your work, Lord..

You're my saviour, You're my Lord, You're my close friend.. Love You!!! Thank You so MUCH!!

For the rest of my life, teach me to remember Your Goodness, JESUS!!! Amen! =)

One without Life, cannot Give Life!

2008-03-07T00:24:00.004+08:00

Thanks Lord for the opportunity just now... i actually wanted to spend time with You in the one hour jog, to praise You and to talk to You about my life.. But Lord, You have Your ways in me.. You allowed my mama to join me! oh! i give thanks for that God! Just as i even move off, You allow me to inform my brothers and ah pa for them to pray for me... for that instant, i knew that it must be You! Thanks Lord for giving me such a wonderful time with my mama, to share and walk.. Jesus, You were with us i know!

Father, i confess that i really don't know wat to do at moments of life.. wondering is this right or wrong.. But You certainly know.. i thank You for allowing me to keep my faith in You, trusting You and following You.. Lord! move in my life Lord... You told me, "one without life, cannot give life".. i listen, i hear.. and now i want to follow.. God, grant me that new life within me! so that i can have You in my life! allow my life to be transform 1st, then many can be transformed..

Psalm 66:10-12
For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.

Thank you God for all the refining and tuning of my life.. indeed, if i am not tested, i will not know where i am.. if i don't know where i am, i can nv be transformed and have life in You.. oh Lord, how much You treasure us in Your eyes..

Allow me to remember all the good things You done in my life! so i can have my focus on You always and not fall away.. God, guide me in Your way through Your hands of grace.. Thank You God!!! Love ya..

Create Your Heart in me Lord!!

2008-03-04T11:06:00.003+08:00

Thank you Lord for the work You did in my boys' lives and mine.. Father i know that i am weak, that is why i should learn to rest more in You this year to wait upon Your call.. Give me a Heart of Fathering.. Allow me to feel how You feel and see what You see!

Jesus, come! i want to see You! i want to meet You in the midst of my life! talk to me for You are my role model.. let me be more like You.. teach me, guide me.. let me know i am a sinner for then i will be remembering Your work at the cross, Your ultimate Grace..

Thanks for the prompting and heartaches Holy Spirit... for You are always reminding me my attitudes, behaviour and thoughts! You constantly safeguard my life and intercede for me.. i must be grateful and be sensitive to You always, not to grieve You anymore..

Lord, i hunger the hearts of my sons to come truthful and honest with me so i can lead them to You.. i pray that You can use me to guide and teach them so that they can be matured in Christ one day.. i thank You for the closeness and confession vic and daryl did in their lives.. as they open up themselves by faithful accounting, Father, look at their hearts and help them.. Father i pray for the rest to encounter You too! let them have a revelation in the mind and a renew life once again! God, help them please!

Give us a pure heart that obeys You, an undivided heart that will not separate ourselves from You by any distractions in life, a tender heart that fills with compassion to continue to love and be set free from hurts and failures and a simple heart to just come back to You!

Jeremiah 29:13
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL YOUR HEART"

oh God, help us to find You.. teach us to give our 100% to our work and 200% to You!

Love, Chong

Press in!!

2008-02-29T09:47:00.002+08:00

oh Lord.. help me.. simply my heart is not focus on the things i am supposed to do.. am i too occupied with the things around me? i must really learn to come to You.. to rest in You..

God, why these few days temptations seems to be more powerful than before? are You upgrading me? testing me? oh Father, please give me what i can bear.. You have sustained me for many times.. please don't let me fail this time..

1 Corinthians10:13
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

i shall claim Your words, God..
Jesus, remind me of Your wonderful work at the cross
Holy Spirit, guide me to capture the spirit in the verse in my life..

Press in.. Persevere Chong!!! ah...!

Allow Me to Come

2008-02-24T02:46:00.006+08:00

Yup Father here i am.. once again You have sustained me from temptation once again.. i praise You Lord for You are the pure and holy King..

God, i need to admit i am weak in my ways.. i get angry easily, disappointed easily and i really cannot understand myself why am not able to stand firm for You in my ways at times.. there are really so many flaws in me.. God, it's not so easy to walk along side with You for You are holy and pure.. but.. PLEASE keep me going.. Please giving me that helping hand to strengthen and seal every good work in me..

Father, come and allow me to be with You.. for You are King, You do mighty wonders Lord.. satisfy my soul and make me grow.. let me make every effort to enter Rest! allow me to see the consequences of my sins and have deep understanding of your works.. Lord, i dun want reading be a routine and things about You be only head knowledge.. Let Your unfailing words be marked in my heart.. let them become principles and convictions that governs my life for You..

Mark 2:27
"....The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath....."

Lord, let me take ownership of this wonderful privilege! let me be disciplined! let me have self-control! let me have breakthroughs! God, let me encounter You everyday, every moment of my life... for You are God, You do mighty wonders Lord!! there's no one else like You..

in Jesus's name i pray, Amen..

40days of Fast!

2008-02-20T13:08:00.002+08:00

Ah pa Father in Heaven..

Oh, teach me to rember your kindness.. teach me to go in your way.. as i fast for these 40days.. bring me a journey of joy with You please.. when i am hungry, teach me to pray and speak of the motive of this fast.. God i want to be closer to You.. i want to love You more.. i know i need You in my life.. so come to me Father as i come to You..

Give me my daily bread Ah pa Father.. as i read and do my quiet time with You, let me know You're there.. when i am struggling with troubles, let me know You're beside me.. when i am double minded, let me know Your way and give me strength to move in Your way..

Today's Psalm51:12
"....and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."

Father, grant me a willing spirit to follow You.. not let me complain so i can be kept blameless before Your sight.. i thank You Jesus.. bcoz through You then i will have life.. i thank You Holy Spirit to keep my sight on God always.. allow me to come to You Father.. don't forsake me.. i need You.. teach me to put You 1st above everything..

Love You! Thank you for the wonder works in my life.. =)

My True Identity

2008-02-12T09:51:00.000+08:00

God, i am so sorry for the wrong things i did in the past.. i fallen short from Your standards in so many ways. Teach me Lord..! Guide me Lord..! hear my true desire in my heart saying i want to follow You for the rest of my life and turn away from me at the time when i became disobedient, going my own ways. in all circumstances, God, let You be in my presence always! Answer me when i call to You, O my righteous God..

i believe You have created me in a special way, planned my life in the unique way and You made me Alvin the only one, that no one can replace what You made me to do for Your purpose! Lord, come close to me! i want an encounter with You every now and then..

Many times, temptations of lust, pride, laziness, greed, disobedience and many many more comes.. Father, You are always there beside me.. How much i seek after You yet i go my own ways, not listening to Your promptings and warnings. But So MANY times, You patiently wait upon for me to turn back to You. Thank You God!

Yes, i am fear of You Lord.. i became timid and began to run away from temptations and dare not face it and fight it.. But it's You Lord are the one who sustains me everyday.. I want to be disciplined for You, honour You! You have blessed me so much..

i have been working and giving onto You God.. i have fought my daily temptations and You have helped me! i thank You!

i was once reminded about Your words to Jesus when He got baptised in Matt3:17:
"...This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased."
Oh understanding Your Heart, God loves everyone! i thank You for Your unfailing Love!

I am a Son of Yours.. the simple words You said in this verse is so direct and clear! My identity and purpose lies on You alone.. You're my vindicator! i want to be humble and submissive.. Father, grant me the spirit of meekness! allow me to dwell upon You everyday of my life! remind me everyday of your Goodness that i am a son of Yours.. Indeed, a son will want to know and do the Father's business and a slave will only do what is told.. God, let my identity be secure in You always.. Hold me tight, Do me right! as my life, i delicate to You for i know it's You who i really belong to..

i love You God.. fill me with Your divine spirit! Thank You so much my Heavenly Father..

Praise Him!

2008-01-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

Wah! ever since i enter the year of Sabbath. i told myself everyday i must make every effort to wake up and praise the Lord 1st. i can say i am quite consistant but huh.. i must say that i did woke up with a complaining attitude at times.. however, i will still turn to Him and seek help or ask God to speak to me and Praise Him!

Today's Psalm 29 is about praising the Lord.. after i read the passage, i only can realise one thing from it.. that is to praise the Lord.. it's like so clear cut! nothing else..

I always wanted to relate my life more to my boys to encourage them their walk with God can be very exciting and fun. God always jokes with me, put funny little cute thoughts in my mind to make me laugh.. haiz, too bad it's just so hard to explain to people at times y i just suddenly laughed or put a smile on my face. well, God is so good and He definitely speaks to everyone differently special in His ways bcoz everyone is created fearfully and wonderfully.. so i will cont to praise Him more and more!! Amen!

After fellowship with ah pa and eejay bro for times, the only key to maintain our race strong with God always is to serve God! bcoz by serving God, then we keep ourselves close to God and understand His heart more. everytime i look at them, it's just so inspiring and encouraging as they pour out their lives to serve God, look after the "sheeps" they have with constant love and giving up their own rights..

This year my faith goal is to build my boys and myself in discipline and with challenges.. we must really grow! God i really don't want to waste time, i want You so much to be in their lives. only then, we will have a common understanding and be more united to do Your will.. so give me ideas please!! i am looking forward for the time when my cell can be warriors for You! Give me a heart of fathering.. let my heart not be harden but more compassion for the people.. let my life be sanctify again and again..!

Always like what Jesus said in Mark 1:17
"Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men."
It's like speaking to me everytime so clearly.. so commanding.. so powerful..so steady!haha

My prayer of Praise!

Father, thank you for Your amazing grace and love for accepting me for who i am

Jesus, i surrender my life onto You and let me move more like You!

Holy Spirit, let You be my 1st counsellor in everything! i want to grow deeper in You, be more sensitive to You and not to grieve You..

Seek After You!

2008-01-24T09:39:00.000+08:00

Yes Father, here i am... coming to You..

After reading Psalm 24 today, i am really more sure that seeking God is more than going to Him.. but also with a clean pair of hands, pure heart and with my soul not lifted up to an idol or anything that is false. (v3-4) Then we can be in His Holy place.

Thus this really reminds me of Psalm 19:14
"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer."

After recieving Ps Melyvn summon, i really need to be like a cow with many stomach that store up the words of God, and as often, bring the words out to be chew in my mouth and taste the goodness of it deep into my heart..

Ah pa also said we must also think in the Spirit to keep ourselves close to God and be born in Him!
"for everyone born of God overcomes the World..." in 1John 5:4

Yes, year of Sabbath! here i enter.. there is none other better time to be close to and grow in the Lord, Jesus and Holy Spirit than the SABBATH!

Gambate!!! =) Love Love Love!

You're the King! Woohoo!!

2008-01-23T09:12:00.000+08:00

It has really been a challenge ever since i got to my new workplace at Jurong!!! haha.. God, you really have your way of style to work in my heart to always not fail to let me take up new challenges in life.. haha

Entering this year of Sabbath.. time indeed has really flown past so fast.. i suddenly realised that maintaining a good solid quality time with God really needs to put in every effort.. a commitment that is certainly out of our convenience..! AMEN!! lol...

At the same time, i realised that it's the evil one's plan to always pile us up with more and more work and business to make us lose focus on God, our source and strength.. i have been rushing here and there, doing this and that for my boys and people but what about myself? i really need to sit down and be focus to ask God what He wants me to grow and build in this year of Sabbath.. not mine but Your will be done Lord..!

Jiayou Jiayou Ong Khiaw Chong! Up Up u shall go close to God and nearer to His holy place.. Sanctify me oh Lord!!! Empower me!!! i will go where You lead me.. let me be disciplined and guard my life firmly for You..

For You're my KING!!! yo yo yo!! =P

A simple prayer from the Heart

2008-01-10T23:52:00.001+08:00

My heavenly Father, hallowed be your name
Let your will be done, in my life as it was planned.
Sustain me through my daily bread as i come to you.
Keep me away from temptations,
Deliver me from the evil one..

Father, i will praise you with all i have! every morning i give You my 1st thought and 1st conversation, to praise You.. teach me to love you more.. guide me to stay humble and good before You..

Let this blog be a delication and reminder of your goodness in my life..

Thank you for always providing.. keep me close to you... love You my God! =)

My Heart wanting to be Transformed

2007-10-16T15:26:00.000+08:00

Let's scream together.. ah!!!

Well, exams are around the corner in 3 weeks time! Gorsh! i had plentiful work to do..
looking back from now, i really was amazed with the things i pulled through.. thanks to God!
i believe that it's Him in me, guiding and always pushing me to break the limits which i always believe i cannot do it.

Everytime of trail, i always struggles in the heart with "should i do it?" and "am i willing to do it?". Eventually, God always pulls me through all tests with more understanding of Him. 10 stars to my almighty God! woohoo!

Growing up is a process.. it comes with a heart transformation too.. walking with God never seems to be boring, instead, it was like having a BGR with Him. There are times of saddness and disapointment, there are also times of joy and happiness. However to all these, deep inside my heart i want to be truly convicted that He shall be the one and only!

Some issues that are toggling in my heart now, where my heart always concern about:
(with ranking)
(1) my boys
(2) my family
(3) ministry in school and church events
(4) my personal walk with God
(5) my social friends
(6) my school work

LOL!! i do hope that i can really be readjusting them before the end of the year. well, i have to be trueful that this ranking is definitely not honouring God 1st in place in everything still..

That's y i need a Heart Transformation!!! =)

God, i know You will...

Allow me to wait and serve obediently for any of your calling. Replace Your heart in me.

Abide in His Teaching

2007-09-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

It has been tough for me recently.. i simply got home everyday near 11 to 12 midnight.. running wild in my projects, schoolwork, meeting up of people, my boys and cell.. i really have to admit that i am tired..!!

For the past few weeks, i struggled in getting up early for school as i no longer stay in hall but home. Time simply turned out to be so little.. i looked at my schedule, it is always occupied.. a lot of things are coming up to be organised and planned, like youth camp, mooncake festival, projects, ntu open cell, my cell and also trying to start the saturday study group.. i realised i always have to pause to check what's coming up.. I concluded, my workload has piled up as compared to the past.

With all these going on and on in my life, i realised it must be careful dealt with.. i must not leave myself fighting alone.. i always reminded myself "Not by might, Not by power, But by the power of the Holy Spirit!" oh... i mustn't kill the spirit man inside of me.. i know i must regain my focus stongly onto the Lord and believe by faith that He will lay hold of me and all the other matters in my life will be taken care of.. I must look upon His promise, not my problem. This spurs me to another higher level of wanting to abide in Him more.. I sense i need to grow deeper with His words..

John8:31
... "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples."

My prayer:
God, i want to be remember as the son of God when i past away.. not because i want to be recognised but i want You to be recognised the ruler of my Life, my Saviour.. i want to be true disciple of yours.. i need to start right and start strong for you.. continue to stretch me to understand your heart more.. let me be a good steward, serving You.. surface my problems and allow me to see them clearly and deal with them boldly.. I need your strength and wisdom.. Guide me, Mold me as i hold onto your teachings...

I Love You God.. Amen!

Vision

2007-08-23T01:15:00.000+08:00

Somewhere in the bible it says, " man without vision, shall perish." indeed i understand that.. but how is it like to have a vision for God? well, today i got the chance to understand and FEEL more about it..

In dictionary, vision means "the act or power of anticipating that which will or may come to be"

A vision from God is not any small things that comes into your head in thoughts only, it's actually feeling it and seeing it happening.. Vision must be caught and believed by life! not any fantasy in the mind oh.. hehe..

My life must be transform.. I don't want to let opporunities to sneak away and not do anything about it! I must start praying for miracles and not any ordinary things that can be accomplish by using common sense. God is not any big small potato, He is the MR I-M-POSSIBLE..

God, let me see your vision..

Botak man is a free man!

2007-08-13T23:55:00.001+08:00

"Hey, why are you botak huh?" This question had been asked many many times by many people around me.. seriously i really dunno how to answer or explain to them because i guess they will not fully understand what i am going through my life with God.. to keep it short, i want to walk seriously with God.. Why not run with God or sit down with God? i suppose a relationship with God is never about rushing it or doing things out of our convenience. God walk with us because He knows us.. He will not rush us, he will not forsake us.. He loves us UNCONDITIONALLY..

Botak!! is the faith challenge i issued out to my boys.. out of conviction, i don't bother whether are they going to be cutting anot, i cut 1st!! Being botak is a symbolic or prophetic act for myself to really come back to God and say to Him, "You are the No.1 in my life! i dun care how people is going to see me with the things i say or do, i just want You!" Being botak, is not being cuter in looks, it's about throwing away my image of pleasing people.. i don't need people to come over and praise me with the things i do.. Don't get me wrong, i am not trying to boast myself, i trying to bring to a point "I want to honour and please GOD 1st in everything"

Honestly, i nv regret about being botak. Everytime i see myself in the mirror, i say to myself that i am a free man! Freedom is the ultimate feeling i get! i feel so light! burden free, problem free, trouble free from me! because i got God at my side.. a BIG GOD who carries a cross for everyone.. He CARES for us.. He shall nv make things too difficult for us to handle.. He always has a way out for us but it is only for us if to obey or surrender to His calling.. He always waits patiently and listen carefully to our cries..

Galatians 5:1
"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."

I will... Love God, Love His people and Love His words... =)

Cherish things or people around You!

2007-08-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

Woo! today is National Day!! hehe.. it had been a wonderful day for me because i managed to purposely engage my parents in asking them to go to the market together and have breakfast together as they collect their medical health report and promising them to come back to have dinner with them.

Parent's health is one area i often keep in prayer with. Looking at my parents with the age of 58 this year, they certainly know how to keep themselves occupied with healthy events. My dad often will exercise himself on a stepping machine daily and my mum does Tai Ji in morning and dancing like 3 times a week. YEah! today's medical report showed some concerning areas of my dad and mum either have dropped near to moderation or still in good healthy conditions.. Oh God! to be frank, when i was hearing the doc reviewing the areas, my heart was certainly worried.. until when everything was certified as good, i subconsciously smiled.. =) In my heart, thanks to God who patiently listens to our prayers and answer them..

Many will only learnt to cherish only when either things or people left them. Some areas are health, friendship, relationship, family, inner peace, study results and many more.. i had learnt my lesson enough for the past. i know the pain was unbearable, not shame to share, like losing of girlfriends, weight lifting for nice wonderful body until i torn my wrist ligament, the trust of my parents due to my rebellious and inmature behaviour and also dear friendships that were lost due to lack of commitment and understanding..

So look around yourself and think deep what are some of the things or people you will hold closely to your life.. Cherish them!

God bless! =)

Your Attitude Determines Your Altitude!!

2007-08-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

YEs! today is my second day in school..! BYE BYE to the good old days of slacking, finally over.. haha.. frankly, i no longer like to be lazing ard at home and do nothing bcoz i noe it's very dangerous and easily kills the spirit man inside of me. Although it seems and feels like you do not need to do anything during the holidays, it doesn't mean there's nothing to do! i can be bold to say that i purposefully engaged myself wonderfully with events like catching up with MANY friends and also serve my mama at home.. wahah!

Whenever school starts, we always will like automatically sink into the mode of "sian-ness". Everyday dragging ourselves to school.. well, to your info, i need a travelling time of 1hr 45min to 2hrs to reach my school from home! so DUN COMPLAIN if your travelling time is shorter than mine, bcoz i don't complain!! hehe

Time seems to be wasted away huh.. BUT!! what kept me strong and cheerful all way during the travelling is spending Quiet Time with the Lord. Reading His words, I renewed my mind, prepared my heart for the day and even prayed for people. So time isn't wasted! hehe.. As Ps Yeuang Cheng once shared, "Your Attitude determines you Altitude in Christ!", which i strongly agreed too, i will nv want my attitude towards my life and God to be slacken.. I choose to be excited in my everyday life while facing challenges!!

Reflection:
This is a year of Victory! I must be inspired 1st so then can i be inspiring to others.. Must Know that we must always be THANKFUL, always VICTORIOUS in Christ and always A BLESSING!!

Informal Time

2007-08-05T02:34:00.000+08:00

This week got to meet up with two of my boys separately.. There wasn't any cell setting or any formal instruction to pass down.. purely just want to fellowship!! Come to think about it, i hardly have good quality time of fun with my boys.. since almost everytime we meet for processing and cell, so i purposely made the objective of the meet up to be very relaxing and kpoing with them about "unusual" topics. hehe.. This is informal time! =)

So during the two informal time of chatting, i laughed with the funny and paiseh questions i used to poke my boys.. in return, i found out more "darker" secrets and confessions.. (don't worry sons, my mouth is tight) wahah.. It was good, building a more intimate relationship with them, just like being a friend to them more than a leader.. This is what G12 is all about.. we Leadership, be a Shepherd and also Manager.. all these just out of a heart wanting to Love them.. the "Love Language" woohoo!!! =)

Our Ps Cesar (spiritual great great great grandpa in Cambodia) once said "Informal time is important!" i can now truely say i understand and experience this point with my spiritual sons..

Reflection:
Let's not be too caught up on looking at and anticipating the outcome or result in matters or on people.. Let us be seeing hope in everyone, speaking and showing nothing but only the "Love Language" =)

Passion Driven i Must Become..

2007-07-31T02:18:00.000+08:00

It had been tough and challenging for the past 2months.. problems with the boys mischievious acts, being a good boy at home helping household chores, organising and attending gatherings.. A lot of self control and discipline needed.. Eventually at times i was tired, not happy and couldn't laugh. But i know it had a good change of heart in me..

Today i blessed my father at home with the 100k blessing.. once again was poked by him with questions and sarcastic remarks regardings Christianity. you asked me how did i feel after blessing him.. i would say it's not good.. i was sad and disappointed, it revealed that my care for them is not enough or should i say not compassionate enough.. it seems like all the work i did in the past was flushed down the drian, not enough for them to see or feel my love for them at all..

For the past, i knew i pushed myself to do things for my family, wanting to get accepted by them for who i am after receiving Christ. Confession!! i was so wrong.. our hearts can be really deceitful at times.. i was "blinded" by thinking i had did enough..

Sitting on Mrt to meet Anthony, i reflected.. The work had not been done in my family.. anything intention without action is nothing.. also, any action without love is nothing too!! I have to always remind myself for it is God's love that changed me to who i am today. I need to move my life in this wonderful love always and meanwhile keeping a Pure HEart, Rightful Conscience and Sincere Faith!

1 Corinthians 13
"1If I speck in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If i give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

Lord, pour over your love in to my life.. let it overflow! i want my heart to be changed, to be more compassionate like Yours.. Work my heart, pump love into me so Love, it shall be the one which motivates me to do every work of Yours.

Jiayou Chong!!

Amazing 20! it shall be a lifestyle of praying..

2007-07-26T02:03:00.000+08:00

Wow!! i blessed 20 people in a short 16days!! even myself i could believe it till last night. i realised the number when i was updating my log book faithfully. i was committed to pray daily for my friends..

Actually, i had no intention at all to be reaching the numbers so fast. However, certainly i was committed to want to bless people around me.. so every now and then, i cannot stand myself doing nothing at home and not blessing my friends out there.. So i met one by one or through gatherings. Eventhough i was at home, i blessed my mama either by sweeping and mopping the floor or accompanying her to the NTUC.. I am still totally amazed with the numbers i had today and happy for when i focus on blessing people, God will fill me up with the numbers faithfully. =)

Every night i am committed to pray for everyone inside my log book and also those that i have in mind to meet up to bless. Everytime i looked at the names, i told the Lord to fill my heart with compassion for them as i pray. i don't want it to be like a duty or chore, rather it should be a lifestyle.. to be praying for people daily so that there will be breakthroughs in their lives!! Thus, i took another PACKET of blessings!!! Friends out there, i believe that God will certainly answer prayers.. it may not be all but i trust He had best plans for you..

For this 100k campagne, i see God's hand moving into people's lives unconditionally. God, you certainly loves us so much even as we turned our backs against you.. You're beautiful and gracious..

Lord, let it be a lifestyle that i will pray to watchover those around me.. those i treasure, cherish and dear to me. Let humility be upon me.. for humility is not having lesser of myself but thinking myself lesser.. Lesser of me and more of You God pouring into my life..

Have your way in me.. Blessings everywhere..

2007-07-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

While doing the 40days fast, i reflected having good intentions are not enough, Be commited to taking action. Just like what Ed Silvoso said, "Lack of work will lead to the lost of faith."

Recently i was having gatherings. Met up a lot of friends. i was asking myself after a long period of not being together, what could i do to bless them. "100K blessings!!!" came into my mind. But, i was fearful of rejections deep in my heart because i didn't want to lose friendships or make them any deserted from me with the clash of misunderstanding of my intention. i just want to bless them.. i cherish friendships and relationships..

Deep inside my heart, i know that God wanted to bless them even more! therefore, if i don't act upon blessing them, i may cut away chances for God's miracles to be happening in their lives. I had my own miracles with God, i know how good it felt. How can i be so selfish and not let this happiness be happening in them.. Good intention is not good enough, i MUST DO IT!

Being obedient, I did the 100k blessing by faith with Andy, his gf Jennie, Yiyun, Kaixin, Poh Choo, Wenting, Jinghui.. i dunno how do they think about this but God i really pray that You can answer their innermost deep desired needs in their hearts.. may it be health, family harmony, inner peace or even forgiveness, God i know you are a provider.. i believe You have plans for them.. I am commited to pray for you my friends and patiently await for good news be upon you. =)

It was heart warming after every gathering.. With smiles in my heart, i wish all of you my friends out there to be blessed, strengthened, flee from any temptation or misery and may there be joy in your life in everything..

Although it was my birthday celebration, i really felt nothing good for myself everytime. I will only feel good when friends, you are blessed with a laugh or smile on your face. You all are special to me no matter where you are.. i am actually blessed to have you all in my life.. Thank you! =)

Do we deserve it?

2007-07-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a partnership with one of my spiritual bro, Jasper. We met at tampines mall with one thing in mind, to do the 100k blessings. We went to NtUC 1st to buy mineral water to bless the people who we would met. Then we prayed to the Lord, asking favour from Him that He would used us to bless those He wanted.

In my heart, frankly, i was excited!! suddenly it felt like this was a real life RPG game conquering quest for the Lord. haha. Well, I asked God to lead me specifically who could i bless. This was because i didn't want to be blessing people who i wanted, instead of God's will. He said "smokers!" So i went ahead without much hesitation. Indeed, I blessed two.

The 1st smoker who i approached was directly behind me, so i went. As we chit chat and addressed him who we were and what was our purpose, we found out that he actually has a gf who is also a Christian belonging to a church in Hougang. Ironically, his purpose there was to "kua zhui" (watch out for police) as his partner was selling VCDs down the road. haha. I continued to pray for him as his eyes still fixed onto the road. Lastly, we thanked him and while walking away, i told him that God will still bless him. wahaha. He laughed. =)

"Woohoo! God, i did it!!" this i said delightly inside my heart. it felt good. Thank God..

Shortly walking awhile, i approached the 2nd smoker. He smiled at me and was friendly. Same thing, i shared who was i and my intention. i started asking him if did he ever want to quit smoking. With a question mark face, he replied "never". It seemed like no one ever asked him to quit before. Thus, I continued to ask, "Do you have a gf, does she mind your smoking habit?" and "Do you know that smoking is bad for health?". He smiled and said yes to both. After that i was inspired to share how i myself quited the habit with God amazingly used a sergernt to catch me smoking during army. In fact, in army, everyone knows that smokers are allowed to smoke. He was amazed. This broke the ice! I told him God does care for us.

We continued with the list of blessings. i promised him that i will certainly prayed over his health everyday even before he expressed what he wanted. He was amazed by my act of commitment. He commented he really felt my sincerity and appreciated me. but as i requested to pray for him, he said this "i don't think i deserved this". oh!!! Instantly i felt God's compassion pouring into me, it was so sad. I told him that i wanted to bless you because God 1st blessed me and HE wants to bless everyone. Eventually he agreed to receive the blessing prayer. After praying, i also assured him that i believe God can do miracles and he will help him in kicking the smoking habit if he's willing. He smiled. Just before we parted, i pleased him to call me if he successfully quit the habit within one month. He agreed. haha..

I did a reflection.. God really wants to bless us. Yes, everyone!!! the 1st smoker who was a working in a business in selling pirated vcds and the 2nd smoker who was so shocked that someone not related does cared to pray for him everyday. God loves and HE cares! that's y he sent Jesus down to die for us. Do we deserve it? frankly, i don't think so but through His amazing grace we were all saved by putting our faith in believing Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour.

God, open my eyes to see you and my ears to hear you! continue to work my heart.. Let me be more compassionate for the lost..

Lord, I want......!!!

2007-07-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah!! i am back from a 2day2 night wonderful encounter camp.. In this camp, i went back to the most fundamental things we need to know in order to understand God's will for our lives..

1.God, you are our perfect father
2.Jesus, our saviour
3.The work of the Cross
4.Our counsellor, Holy Spirit

However, in this post, i wanted to share one ultimate attitude which i captured during the camp that will bring us to the success. That is the "I want..!!" attitude.

Most of the time in the session led by Ps Danny, we were always shouting "I want...!!" At first, all of us were either hesitant or too shy when asked to do so.. but after a few times, we really opened our hearts and shouted. This was to awake the desire inside us that we want God. every shouting we held for 20-30sec and they were loud..

Upon reflecting, i realised that many things in my life usually complied this attitude.. Without this attitude, there won't be any desire to do any thing properly. May end up being lost and losing focus. For example, i was quite an impressive soccer player during my younger days.. that was because I WAnTED to be the best. i pushed myself to practice diligently day in day out, focusing on dribbling, ball control, shooting and even accuracy and result showed! i was the only chinese who made it into the 1st team representing up to national level competing with every other top schools in Singapore. hehe..

Today, God i want You! i desire You.. have Your way in me.. continue to work in my heart as i focus on listening to Your Voice everyday.. =)

My Quiet Time

2007-07-13T14:15:00.000+08:00

I am grateful of where i am at this point of time in my life.. certainly many of my friends noticed a significant difference in me compared to the past.. I must confess that i always want to seek for a life that is problem free, relax and can just laid back and do nothing.. in fact, this is a desire where all human beings wanted. However in reality, this is impossible..

Everyday doing my quiet time with the Lord, reading His words, reflecting upon my life.. i come to understand myself more and more.. This become a walking journey with the Lord understanding more of Him and knowing more of myself.. i discovered many root issues that always channelled to many similar problems in my life.. so by refreshing my heart and mind daily with the Lord, keeps me Awake! in a sense that i will safe guard myself from all sort of bad behaviour and attitude which may lead to sins.. in life, we have a choice.. we always do!

John 8:31-32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

In a season of Looking Far, i target myself to be someone who can really shout out loud.. "Lord, indeed i am a son of Yours!"

I surrender all to you, Lord.. i will learn to be more obedient and hold onto your teaching closely in my heart to live purposefully for You everyday in my life...

Guarding my Heart, my Life

2007-07-12T12:52:00.000+08:00

I supposed hardening our hearts is a time of rejecting God's best offer for ourselves.

Come to think about it, i have somethings with me which i am still struggling with.. A lot of time i harden my heart for self pleasure.. This cut away all the goodness and perfect plan God had planned for me..

Hardening of the heart can be like the things we think negatively, things we do selfishly, words we say out of ego.. people does like to dwell in the sweet old memories whether is it relationship or glory, we have this self seeking attitude to feel good about ourselves.. Because we want the best in everything for ourselves..

Today i reflected, i know that the best cannot be found anywhere except in the Lord. Also, we must learn to put away all selfishness so that God can work more in us..

Heavenly Father,

Take away my "self", Put more of You in me..

I pray..

Amen..

5 hours of waiting time, is it worth it?

2007-05-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

"Sitting down, laying down.. its just so uncomfortable!! i needed a bed.." This is what i was thinking and hoping for at the airport.. what happened was, i waited for a best buddy of my lifetime coming back from overseas.

His arrival time was 540am and i waited him personally at the airport since 1230am. you know, it's a terrible feeling if you got no one picking you up or welcoming you back. So i decided to stayover at the airport.

A total of 5 hours of waiting time i had before he made his appearance in front of me.. i was so delighted..

"Jin Ke Qiang Welcome Back!!" hehe..

Many things in life have their values.. Money has value, things kept for a long time have their values, and even ourselves have values with the qualification in studies.. haha.. so how about friends?

In my life, friends played an important role. They encourage me, support me, help me and make me laugh.. eventhough there are hard times, friends still care for me, love me and protect me.. i do treasure friends a lot, but at times don't know how to express myself very well.. and i believe many may share the same problem..

But the sad things is sometimes people chooses friends by their looks, style, character, background and even for benefits.

Shouldn't we compare? haha, yet everybody is unqiue and special is his or her own ways..

A friend is understanding, forgiving us for what we did wrong, never leaves when you are in trouble, share your ups and downs, always want the best out of you, never ask for anything and so so so much more... so what is the value of a friend to you?

Since you know how a friend should value, shouldn't you be a friend of your friends around you?

Friendship are sweet and beautiful, don't let it be one of your regrets for not treasuring anyone around you who are true and nice to you. =)

A Miracle Or Coincidence?

2007-05-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

This might had happened to me but... hehe...

Recently i had an amazing experience of life and death while crossing the road.. I was taking a route back to Redhill Mrt Station by walk, crossing a lot of small narrow roads. When it came to the second last junction where i was about to walk across.. Suddenly, i heard a voice telling me that there was a car approaching.. So i stopped instantaneously and looked onto my left.. At the bend, "ZooMMMmmm!!!" a black coloured car speeded pass me..

Wow!! i was so gladed that i did stopped and looked.. Immediately i thanked God for saving my life..

So people, how will you consider about my escape from a car accident.. a miracle or coincidence?

Erm, it is a coincidence if you think i happened to be cautious and checked for cars before crossing the road..

However, i believe it is a miracle because i trusted God was in full control of the situation, telling me to stopped, preventing the car from knocking into me.. and sparing my life by His amazing Grace from any suffering..

I realised how amazingly God did to save my life.. HE warned me that there's a car coming. HE stopped me from moving forward. He allowed me to witness and feel His Awesome power by watching the car flew pass me. It just so supernatural and i am so grateful for HIM for saving my life.

"How many times in life we ignored Him, we chosed our way of life.."

My little prayer..

"Lord, allow me to be listening to your calls.. Please don't let the world blind my feelings for You.. i want You to be the shepherd of my life.. teach me, grow me and guide me to be more Christ liked. Thank You for Your amazing love and grace upon me.. i want to serve you with my life."

Do you want to see miracles? Do you desire miracles to be happening in your lifetime?

haha.. wait no more!! because i did. Hope you will have a supernatural encounter with God.. =)

"I'm not a bad person, i just have bad luck!"

2007-05-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

I had an interesting hang out with my little boys in catching a show. Well, the movie was none other than "Spiderman 3". Woohoo!! Finally i watched.. some of my friends even commented "wah! so slow den watch ah". Indeed it's a very good movie i will recommend everyone to watch. 5 stars man!! Yeah..

At the beginning of the show, a very interesting tag line caught my attention. It was said by the escaped convict(sandman) when he was forced by his wife to leave the house. He said, "I'm not a bad person, i just have bad luck." Wow! i was so amazed because isn't this sound very familiar among people while discussing or sharing issues in life like studies, work and results..

While in school, one of my schoolmate always complaint that he isn't stupid or slow in studies, it is just his luck that the questions in the exams are always those that he is not good at. That's why he failed the paper.

During my secondary school time, i found out that friends got a partime job which was very relax and easy YET we got the same amount of pay rate!!! i was furious and complaint that it was just my luck.. although getting the same pay rate, i had to work more than my friends.

The funniest was from my parents.. Always complaining that they are down on their luck of having a long "drought" not striking 4D.. Everytime switching on the tv text, never will i fail to hear long winding "Aiyo" and "Suay"(which means bad luck) from them.. hehe.. lucky enough they do not know i got a blog.. =X

What i am trying to drive at is.. many times in life when things happened in a bad way or problems surfaced, we do resort to excuses to allow ourselves to feel better and not do anything about it. "Luck" just happened to be one of easiest excuses we can find. When things come in handy or hard to have solutions, we will naturally want to run away from them, put them aside and don't care about them, or even pretend that nothing even happened!!

In the past, i always run away from problems, friends and family. Because i did not want to deal with it.. I was scare.. I did not know how to.. I found and felt it was difficult.. By doing this, i created more problems instead.. well, not many i really could take it.. However each was a growing process to learn and grow strong. =)

There are matters in life we really have to bite our teeth and believe in ourselves that we can do it. We don't rely on luck very much.. All we need is extra effort, extra care amd extra focus at different situations..

Finally, i reflected and got this..

"Stop finding excuses for ourselves because dare to deal with the matters will allow us to grow in character, learn and understand more about values in life.."