Psalm 127:1
"Unless the Lord builds the house, it's builder labor in vain"
Father, it must be a broken spirit that leads to the gateway of Yours..! indeed, if Your presence is not with me, how far can i go or last..
Thank you Holy Spirit with the constant reminder to watch over my tongue and mouth.. through it, i praise God, through it, i can also be cursing.. Today, was having a gathering with my uni clique celebrating Sj's birthday. However as we settled and start crapping and joking, i had lost my tongue.. i went into criticising people and joking unmanneredly to the gals.. Haiz.. how unholy!! God, how can my heart and attitude sway away from Your values in me so easily.. But thank God for this bcoz i understand once again that how man can move away being God-focus easily.
Yes! unless You Lord enthrone in me, my work will always be in vain.. it's not behaviour modification but heart transformation You want in Your people! Let Your grace always be telling me that i am weak.. i am nobody.. i am unworthy.. Yet bcoz You're crazy over me, Jesus was to die on the cross for me..
Psalm 118:5
"In anguish I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free"
Let Your redemption begin in me.. Let me come to the cross daily for Your cleansing of my heart. Help Help Help Lord.. i need You badly.. God, please speak to me.. sustain me.. =`(
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
A simple Test!
Same as my usual routine to work, bus and mrt transport. However today, is a test of heart.
At the very beginning of the day in bus, God had already put this verse into my mind..
Matthew 6:19-20
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, where thieves do not break in and steal."
i was telling myself, "Yes Lord! Yes Jesus.." i thought i knew it but soon the test came! While waiting for the mrt to come, i was pleading God to give me seat in the train so that i can rest my back or take a nap till my destination (Jurong East). Amazingly, when i board the train, there was really one seat available! i thank God and quickly rushed over and sat down. During this process, at the corner of my eye, i saw another malay lady who also want that seat. Unfortunately, i was fast! hehe.. Immediately, Holy Spirit came down on me, reminding the verse in me not to store up treasures on earth and be like Jesus, always serving and giving.. GIVE UP the seat!!
At the back of my mind, i began to analyse whether should i give up the seat not. i looked at the surrounding for any elderly, none! i looked at the lady, she looks pretty healthy, fit and got "good strong" legs to substain the ride.. Thus, i decided not to give up my seat for there isn't any SUFFICIENT good reasons for me to do so..
The worse thing came! i took out my bible and read! Wah!! this time i realised how can a God seeker not do wat God has commanded me to do. Super remorseful! But by then, i was already very awkward to give up my seat after some time. Eventually i decided to not give up my seat again and carry on sitting.
At the second stop, this other older chinese woman came in with plastic bags, standing beside this malay lady.. Oh the opportunity came, a SUFFICIENT reason for me to give up my seat i thought. But! suddenly, i began to think that if i gave up this seat for the chinese woman, will the malay lady think i am racist? i was stuck once again and decided not to give up the seat.. By this time, Holy Spirit was like so buay tahan with me already, telling me "Just Give Up the seat la, whether who sits down on it will be decided by me"
So the third stop was approaching, the guy beside me stood up and left for door! the malay lady sat down.. By this time, i also really buay tahan myself. How can i still be sitting on that seat! Finally i decided to obey God. i looked at the chinese woman, stood up, smile and told her she may have the seat.. She smiled back at me saying "i don't think so, bcoz i think i may have board the wrong train. i want to go ANG MO KIO." so i was surprised and quickly told her that she had boarded the wrong train. She thanked me and began to move to the door..
Suddenly i noticed the seat that i gave up is empty! i looked around, i was the only one standing.. THEN i realised indeed God long ago had prepared a seat for me to take good care of me. Just that He put a simple test to see whether will i obey Him and trust Him that He can still provide even if i am put to a situation to give up things for Him to do good. Eventually i thanked God for His patience, grace, teachings and then sat on the same seat again.. =)
Prayer:
Psalm 125:1
"Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever"
Father, let me follow the pattern of Jesus! i am sorry for i had been so calculative in looking for hundreds and thousands SUfficient Good reasons to do your work.. In fact, You are that one Good reason of why i should do good. i know i had failed in Your standards.. Give me grace so that i can continue to serve You and do Your will in me.. i want to trust You forever and i know that You will not let me be shaken by circumstances the evil one throws at me but will allow me to endure and perservere it!
Thank You for the test! For this, i know how much i need You in my life.. i love You, Jesus! my saviour, my role model! =)
At the very beginning of the day in bus, God had already put this verse into my mind..
Matthew 6:19-20
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, where thieves do not break in and steal."
i was telling myself, "Yes Lord! Yes Jesus.." i thought i knew it but soon the test came! While waiting for the mrt to come, i was pleading God to give me seat in the train so that i can rest my back or take a nap till my destination (Jurong East). Amazingly, when i board the train, there was really one seat available! i thank God and quickly rushed over and sat down. During this process, at the corner of my eye, i saw another malay lady who also want that seat. Unfortunately, i was fast! hehe.. Immediately, Holy Spirit came down on me, reminding the verse in me not to store up treasures on earth and be like Jesus, always serving and giving.. GIVE UP the seat!!
At the back of my mind, i began to analyse whether should i give up the seat not. i looked at the surrounding for any elderly, none! i looked at the lady, she looks pretty healthy, fit and got "good strong" legs to substain the ride.. Thus, i decided not to give up my seat for there isn't any SUFFICIENT good reasons for me to do so..
The worse thing came! i took out my bible and read! Wah!! this time i realised how can a God seeker not do wat God has commanded me to do. Super remorseful! But by then, i was already very awkward to give up my seat after some time. Eventually i decided to not give up my seat again and carry on sitting.
At the second stop, this other older chinese woman came in with plastic bags, standing beside this malay lady.. Oh the opportunity came, a SUFFICIENT reason for me to give up my seat i thought. But! suddenly, i began to think that if i gave up this seat for the chinese woman, will the malay lady think i am racist? i was stuck once again and decided not to give up the seat.. By this time, Holy Spirit was like so buay tahan with me already, telling me "Just Give Up the seat la, whether who sits down on it will be decided by me"
So the third stop was approaching, the guy beside me stood up and left for door! the malay lady sat down.. By this time, i also really buay tahan myself. How can i still be sitting on that seat! Finally i decided to obey God. i looked at the chinese woman, stood up, smile and told her she may have the seat.. She smiled back at me saying "i don't think so, bcoz i think i may have board the wrong train. i want to go ANG MO KIO." so i was surprised and quickly told her that she had boarded the wrong train. She thanked me and began to move to the door..
Suddenly i noticed the seat that i gave up is empty! i looked around, i was the only one standing.. THEN i realised indeed God long ago had prepared a seat for me to take good care of me. Just that He put a simple test to see whether will i obey Him and trust Him that He can still provide even if i am put to a situation to give up things for Him to do good. Eventually i thanked God for His patience, grace, teachings and then sat on the same seat again.. =)
Prayer:
Psalm 125:1
"Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever"
Father, let me follow the pattern of Jesus! i am sorry for i had been so calculative in looking for hundreds and thousands SUfficient Good reasons to do your work.. In fact, You are that one Good reason of why i should do good. i know i had failed in Your standards.. Give me grace so that i can continue to serve You and do Your will in me.. i want to trust You forever and i know that You will not let me be shaken by circumstances the evil one throws at me but will allow me to endure and perservere it!
Thank You for the test! For this, i know how much i need You in my life.. i love You, Jesus! my saviour, my role model! =)
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